Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Today

Today is the greatest
Day I ve ever kown
Cant live for tomorrow
Tomorrows much too long
I burn my eyes out
Before I get out

I wanted more
Than life could ever grant
Bored by the chore
Of saving face

Today is the greatest
Day I have ever known
Cant wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
Ill tear my heart out
Before I get out

Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
Ive tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings

Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day
That I have ever known

I want to turn you on
I want to turn you round
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you

Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever known

The universe is saying something to me, and I can't see quite clearly through the frustrated confusion--but more than that I can't feel anything past the butterflies. I can't utter a bad note through a smile, I can't even gear towards the negative when I feel like my heart is lightened. Hopeful, imaginative, graced. I cannot marginalize my feelings with rationality, or sum it up, it's undeniably been swirling on for longer than you or I could possibly comprehend. I think that when you allow yourself the dignity of trusting your insides that's when the little things all seem to make sense. I'm so empowered and happiness doesn't do justice to this consciousness.. I plan on continuing to listen, absolutely.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

GUESS WHO GOT ADDED TO COACHELLA'S LINEUP...




WITH 13 DAYS TO GO, One of Dim Mak's newest artists FELIX CARTAL just got added to the COACHELLA 2009 Lineup !

Felix's addition marks the fourth Dim Mak artist appearing on the 2009 lineup, and wraps up the weekend with a strong Dim Mak presence..

Friday - Steve Aoki

Saturday - MSTRKRFT & THE BLOODY BEETROOTS

SUNDAY - FELIX CARTAL

Not to mention the fact that Felix's appearance will blow minds, surely making Sunday a day NOT TO MISS!

http://www.myspace.com/felixcartal

http://felixcartal.com/






Yes? YES.

See you all in the desert..........................

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Adventures of Little Bo Peep and Yours Truly

Great week, great weekend. Friday stayed in and re-read Night by Elie Weisel (such an IMPORTANT and powerful book), Saturday celebrated Tahlia's 22nd birthday with a super special guest (Mr. Dan Dempsey aka highschool sweeeeetheart), and Sunday Whaler's in Venice, Obrien's for beers, random detour through SM for photo op., dinner with the familia... pretty well rounded, I'd say... my mom even told me that I am a "piece of work" (haha)! I also found out that when I was three I had a beloved pet cat (which I think I somewhat remember ?) and I saw it run into the street and get hit, then filled with sorrow turned and said, "But I won't have a kitty anymore...."

Uhhhm, anyway my dear lovelies Ursula and Tahlia are leaving me for Europe in a week.. which is shitty for two reasons, A. I will not be able to enjoy their company and B. I was really hoping to go........, but work requires my presence in LA. So I will survive and when they get back, COACHELLAAA ---- and we are possibly going to drive up in Ursula's grandmas van !! Party van ? We may even be needing it in lieu of a hotel room. Our current plan is to just get down there and figure it out, three fun girls... I'm thinking it's not gonna be super tough to conjure some accommodations. I am so excited for this trip: pool parties, camping, three days of MUSIC, bikinis, the desert, drinks, laughs, cuute boooys... and who knows what other fun randomness we will get ourselves into. MSTRKRFT's performance is supposed to be suuuuper special.. Can't wait to hear more on this.

Alright so that's my weekend, it's all in all been a wonderful week ! Life has been so pleasant lately, super busy (which I prefer), but everything just seems to be in place. Here's some photos for my fellow clairvoyant communicators:





















Thursday, March 19, 2009

MSTRKRFT performs on Jimmy Kimmel

AMAZING. "And never before, have I ever seen anyone check their text messages during a song.... Congratulations on setting a new (laughs)... and not just once but REPEATEDLY.."



Their album 'Fist of God' is available now on iTunes, and will be in stores 3/24.

"Obama actually walks the walk."

As a little tribute to Barack, and his West Coast venture(which, btw has made driving in LA today a nightmare!) to appear on "The Tonight Show with Jay Leno", here is a NY Times Opinion piece by Frank Rich that I found interesting, even if it is pretty "loaded". And as Barack said himself during the interview, "Everybody's got an opinion. But that's part of what makes for a democracy." With that, here's the article:



http://www.nytimes.com/2009/03/15/opinion/15rich.html

Op-Ed Columnist
The Culture Warriors Get Laid Off

By FRANK RICH
Published: March 14, 2009

"SOMEDAY we’ll learn the whole story of why George W. Bush brushed off that intelligence briefing of Aug. 6, 2001, “Bin Laden Determined to Strike in U.S.” But surely a big distraction was the major speech he was readying for delivery on Aug. 9, his first prime-time address to the nation. The subject — which Bush hyped as “one of the most profound of our time” — was stem cells. For a presidency in thrall to a thriving religious right (and a presidency incapable of multi-tasking), nothing, not even terrorism, could be more urgent.

When Barack Obama ended the Bush stem-cell policy last week, there were no such overheated theatrics. No oversold prime-time address. No hysteria from politicians, the news media or the public. The family-values dinosaurs that once stalked the earth — Falwell, Robertson, Dobson and Reed — are now either dead, retired or disgraced. Their less-famous successors pumped out their pro forma e-mail blasts, but to little avail. The Republican National Committee said nothing whatsoever about Obama’s reversal of Bush stem-cell policy. That’s quite a contrast to 2006, when the party’s wild and crazy (and perhaps transitory) new chairman, Michael Steele, likened embryonic stem-cell research to Nazi medical experiments during his failed Senate campaign.

What has happened between 2001 and 2009 to so radically change the cultural climate? Here, at last, is one piece of good news in our global economic meltdown: Americans have less and less patience for the intrusive and divisive moral scolds who thrived in the bubbles of the Clinton and Bush years. Culture wars are a luxury the country — the G.O.P. included — can no longer afford.

Not only was Obama’s stem-cell decree an anticlimactic blip in the news, but so was his earlier reversal of Bush restrictions on the use of federal money by organizations offering abortions overseas. When the administration tardily ends “don’t ask, don’t tell,” you can bet that this action, too, will be greeted by more yawns than howls.

Once again, both the president and the country are following New Deal-era precedent. In the 1920s boom, the reigning moral crusade was Prohibition, and it packed so much political muscle that F.D.R. didn’t oppose it. The Anti-Saloon League was the Moral Majority of its day, the vanguard of a powerful fundamentalist movement that pushed anti-evolution legislation as vehemently as it did its war on booze. (The Scopes “monkey trial” was in 1925.) But the political standing of this crowd crashed along with the stock market. Roosevelt shrewdly came down on the side of “the wets” in his presidential campaign, leaving Hoover to drown with “the dries.”

Much as Obama repealed the Bush restrictions on abortion and stem-cell research shortly after pushing through his stimulus package, so F.D.R. jump-started the repeal of Prohibition by asking Congress to legalize beer and wine just days after his March 1933 inauguration and declaration of a bank holiday. As Michael A. Lerner writes in his fascinating 2007 book “Dry Manhattan,” Roosevelt’s stance reassured many Americans that they would have a president “who not only cared about their economic well-being” but who also understood their desire to be liberated from “the intrusion of the state into their private lives.” Having lost plenty in the Depression, the public did not want to surrender any more freedoms to the noisy minority that had shut down the nation’s saloons.

In our own hard times, the former moral “majority” has been downsized to more of a minority than ever. Polling shows that nearly 60 percent of Americans agree with ending Bush restrictions on stem-cell research (a Washington Post/ABC News survey in January); that 55 percent endorse either gay civil unions or same-sex marriage (Newsweek, December 2008); and that 75 percent believe openly gay Americans should serve in the military (Post/ABC, July 2008). Even the old indecency wars have subsided. When a federal court last year struck down the F.C.C. fine against CBS for Janet Jackson’s “wardrobe malfunction” at the 2004 Super Bowl, few Americans either noticed or cared about the latest twist in what had once been a national cause célèbre.

It’s not hard to see why Eric Cantor, the conservative House firebrand who is vehemently opposed to stem-cell research, was disinclined to linger on the subject when asked about it on CNN last Sunday. He instead accused the White House of acting on stem cells as a ploy to distract from the economy. “Let’s take care of business first,” he said. “People are out of jobs.” (On this, he’s joining us late, but better late than never.)

Even were the public still in the mood for fiery invective about family values, the G.O.P. has long since lost any authority to lead the charge. The current Democratic president and his family are exemplars of precisely the Eisenhower-era squareness — albeit refurbished by feminism — that the Republicans often preached but rarely practiced. Obama actually walks the walk. As the former Bush speechwriter David Frum recently wrote, the new president is an “apparently devoted husband and father” whose worst vice is “an occasional cigarette.”

Frum was contrasting Obama to his own party’s star attraction, Rush Limbaugh, whose “history of drug dependency” and “tangled marital history” make him “a walking stereotype of self-indulgence.” Indeed, the two top candidates for leader of the post-Bush G.O.P, Rush and Newt, have six marriages between them. The party that once declared war on unmarried welfare moms, homosexual “recruiters” and Bill Clinton’s private life has been rebranded by Mark Foley, Larry Craig, David Vitter and the irrepressible Palins. Even before the economy tanked, Americans had more faith in medical researchers using discarded embryos to battle Parkinson’s and Alzheimer’s than in Washington politicians making ad hoc medical decisions for Terri Schiavo.

What’s been revealing about watching conservatives debate their fate since their Election Day Waterloo is how, the occasional Frum excepted, so many of them don’t want to confront the obsolescence of culture wars as a political crutch. They’d rather, like Cantor, just change the subject — much as they avoid talking about Bush and avoid reckoning with the doomed demographics of the G.O.P.’s old white male base. To recognize all these failings would be to confront why a once-national party can now be tucked into the Bible Belt.

The religious right is even more in denial than the Republicans. When Obama nominated Kathleen Sebelius, the Roman Catholic Kansas governor who supports abortion rights, as his secretary of health and human services, Tony Perkins, the leader of the Family Research Council, became nearly as apoplectic as the other Tony Perkins playing Norman Bates. “If Republicans won’t take a stand now, when will they?” the godly Perkins thundered online. But Congressional Republicans ignored him, sending out (at most) tepid press releases of complaint, much as they did in response to Obama’s stem-cell order. The two antiabortion Kansas Republicans in the Senate, Sam Brownback and Pat Roberts, both endorsed Sebelius.

Perkins is now praying that economic failure will be a stimulus for his family-values business. “As the economy goes downward,” he has theorized, “I think people are going to be driven to religion.” Wrong again. The latest American Religious Identification Survey, published last week, found that most faiths have lost ground since 1990 and that the fastest-growing religious choice is “None,” up from 8 percent to 15 percent (which makes it larger than all denominations except Roman Catholics and Baptists). Another highly regarded poll, the General Social Survey, had an even more startling finding in its preliminary 2008 data released this month: Twice as many Americans have a “great deal” of confidence in the scientific community as do in organized religion. How the almighty has fallen: organized religion is in a dead heat with banks and financial institutions on the confidence scale.

This, too, is a replay of the Great Depression. “One might have expected that in such a crisis great numbers of these people would have turned to the consolations of and inspirations of religion,” wrote Frederick Lewis Allen in “Since Yesterday,” his history of the 1930s published in 1940. But that did not happen: “The long slow retreat of the churches into less and less significance in the life of the country, and even in the lives of the majority of their members, continued almost unabated.”

The new American faith, Allen wrote, was the “secular religion of social consciousness.” It took the form of campaigns for economic and social justice — as exemplified by the New Deal and those movements that challenged it from both the left and the right. It’s too early in our crisis and too early in the new administration to know whether this decade will so closely replicate the 1930s, but so far Obama has far more moral authority than any religious leader in America with the possible exception of his sometime ally, the Rev. Rick Warren.

History is cyclical, and it would be foolhardy to assume that the culture wars will never return. But after the humiliations of the Scopes trial and the repeal of Prohibition, it did take a good four decades for the religious right to begin its comeback in the 1970s. In our tough times, when any happy news can be counted as a miracle, a 40-year exodus for these ayatollahs can pass for an answer to America’s prayers."

Danny, I don't think I found out how you survived 25 years......

Should we do this all over again? Seeing as how I managed to lose all of my belongings, smash my finger in a car door, and apparently made a circus of a ride home... I think a re-do is appropriate. BUT, for a reason different than the one you're imagining.... I think a re-do is appropriate to expand my horizons and see just how far I can push the crazy label.

Here are some party favors:









Saturday, March 14, 2009

Nick and Hillary, again...

Happy Birthday to the most important person to ever walk into my life, Nicolas J Evans Magee.

I know that if nothing else, I've had the great fortune of a great love and one that has transformed my life and my heart, my insides.. forever. No one has ever been so kind, so accepting and has understood me in the way that you did, Nick. Each of our moments were filled with mad love, the kind that makes you want to hide behind trees in planters, the kind that softly reassured that there was indeed a purpose of this place. Our relationship was truly that of 'can't live with each other, can't live without each other'. We were one in the same, absolute kindred spirits and I've no doubt we've been traveling together for a long time. I can't say I'm 'evolved' enough to really feel that you are with me all the time, though I do know that you are. It's kind of analogous to when you feel like a pain hurts so badly it will never leave, but deep down you know it will heal. I know that though you're physically not with me, you are with me on the most real plane of existence there is, deep down in that special place, forever. I'm still so pained by your physical absence, and if I allowed it, the pain could eat me alive, as it almost did. The thing that keeps me going is the gratitude I feel to have been given an experience like you. And the weight of pain that is accompanied with the knowing that you were limited here, has taught me invaluable lessons and has led me to visions of what true equanimity, freedom, & peace mean. I know that we are unlimited, boundless soul mates and your memory is a legend to all who knew you, truly. Happy Birthday sweetheart.







I wanna glide down over mulholland
I wanna write her name in the sky
Gonna free fall out into nothin
Gonna leave this world for a while