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there are two types of people in this world:

a. the type of person who is afraid that they r addicted to coffee

and 2. the type of person who shrugs and says, "everyones addicted to coffee, its not that big of a deal"

even though I'd personally like to say I am the latter version of human I must admit that I'm probably a bit of both. there's a true gemini for ya.

but you, no you are absolutely number 2. i always envied that sense of self-assurance, and im sure you knew i relied a lot on it.

I think I'm gonna defy the conventional wisdom that we are to have "no regrets" and just say that yeah... there are a lot of things I'd do differently. I don't know if it's possible to reach a point of equanimity with two extreme/addict personalities.... but what I do know is that I miss you.

You're good, I'm good, I'm here, you're here, we're there, we're busy, we're cold, we miss the laughs... we say we care so much, but still there is such a wave of fear that takes both of us under.